Suddenly the hail stopped and a torrent of rain started. It was a strange rain, because it was not falling, it was raining sideways. I had reached the end and my anger started to turn into despair. Was it really His fault? As I thought about it, something started to well up from the deepest part of my soul as the sideways rain hit my face and ran down my chin. It got stronger and stronger and I looked up at the darkest part of the sky and my voice exploded
"GOD!!! HELP ME!!! I CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE!!! I KNOW I’M NOT LIVING RIGHT!!! BUT I CAN’T DO IT!!! I NEED YOU!!! I KNOW YOU"RE THERE, HELP ME PLEASE!!!"
As suddenly as the wind started, the rain stopped and the darkness departed like a runaway train. Light broke through the clouds and a beam shined down on my street as steam vapors rose and danced. The sense of guilt and shame was gone. I felt different, so very different. I felt Gods presence, I was no longer alone. I felt love. That ever evasive sense of happiness that I was chasing so hard after for years was suddenly overwhelming my broken soul.
God.......is Love.
I sat there a while longer laughing and sobbing. I got up, suddenly feeling like I needed to call my mom. That supernatural experience of Love in 1988 changed my life forever.
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