Blog Post by Wendy Kauffman
We live in a dark world. Rain falls. Storms come. Lightening strikes. Your life can shatter. The roof can fall in. You can be damaged. As long as you live, you will have something to lose - little pieces of yourself. The people you love, the life choices you cherish - there is always something at risk, something dear. Some cause for fear. We can choose to surrender to that fear and let it rule our lives, or we can surrender to God all of those things we love and fear to lose, and then love fearlessly - undaunted.”
Christine Caine
What in the world do we do with disappointment? What do we do with a heartbreak so deep that it threatens to swallow us whole. What do we do when it seems like our dreams are dying? What do we do with our fears? What do we do when it feels like our life may be shattering into a million pieces? I have spent the last month in the doctor's office. Mine and Jeff's both and at every appointment I start asking myself all of these questions. It seems at every turn there has been disappointment or fear.
I have been reading in Isaiah and I came across this passage today. 10 Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the Lord, who has compassion on you.
Through all the tears, the hurt, and the heartache, this is what I have come to. We as human beings are frail creatures. We hurt, We have been hurt. We fail, We cause others to fail. But, none of this changes who God is or what His heart is towards us. At the end of the day isn't that what matters most! That even on the most excruciating days, through completely unexpected disappointments, we are loved by the ONE who matters most! God is saying, that even if everything falls to pieces My love won't walk away from you.
In 2 days I will be walking into a doctor's office to have a biopsy of a cyst they found in my breast. My whole mind has been consumed by the thoughts of fear and helplessness. I want to scream at the thought that I have to do this. No one can really tell me what to expect. No one has really been able to calm my fears, until today. I woke up this morning and headed out to the swimming pool where our youngest daughter, Ruth, was competing. It was a nice morning and we usually have to be there pretty early. While she was warming up, I read this: Isaiah 63:9 In all their distress he too was distressed, and the angel of his presence saved them.In his love and mercy he redeemed them; he lifted them up and carried them all the days of old.
This struck me pretty hard. God hurts because we hurt. He doesn't have to, He's God, but He does because He loves us so much. But, not only does he hurt, In His love and mercy He redeems us. I realize that with all that is going on in our lives right now, the one thing we can count on is that God is present and he will lift us up and carry us. If we can rest in His presence then none of this seems as daunting as before.
No matter what is going on in your life today. No matter what dreams are unrealized, what fears you have, what disappointments have come, know that God loves you so much and He wants to carry it for you, all we have to do is let go!
